Perks

Its been a while since I wrote something down or post my thoughts. But looking at how things are and the past makes me appreciate the ‘now’. I am not rich like some people I know. I have experienced and understood the feeling of 'naghihirap'. There were times when I was younger, we couldn’t pay tuition. At a very young age, my siblings and I felt how it is like to stay outside of the classroom during final exams because we couldn’t settle our financial accounts. The feeling of looking inside my classroom and watch my classmates as they look at me and whisper to each other. The feeling of inadequacy, financial struggle and limitation that stopped me and my siblings to catch up on the level of education we want, gotten in our spirits somehow. We struggle from time to time and growing up felt that money is everything in this world in order to get something you want. At an early age, I watched my parents struggle to keep our family on a dangling standard life. Not rich like we own cars and multiple houses, not the level of being poor that we stayed in 'barong-barong', thank goodness.

I have understood how it is to feel like when people say 'baka hanggang diyan ka lang, kasi ayan lang ang kaya nyo”. Though, I never hated those people who say that to me, kasi hassle magalit sa mga ganun. =))) Marami na kong narinig na ganyan at marami pa ren naman akong naabot (at maaabot pa). And I also never blamed my parents for not trying harder too. Sometimes, as a child you have to understand and be thankful of what your parents can provide because that’s all they can give you. We’ve experienced losing our home and we had no choice but to live together with other people. Some of it made us inferior but it never stopped me from dreaming big.

So I chose to be strong.

I have not finished my degree yet but I’m getting there. I chose to go out and get what I want in my career and my life. At nagugulat na lang ako na minsan, hindi ko naman hinihingi, pero binibigay ni God. I landed two jobs that was in the line of my career. And I consider it luck and faith in my skills cause I know I’m good at it. Minsan talaga, wala kang makakapitan kasi minsan ang kalaban mo na ang sarili mo. God believes in you more than you believe in yourself and that actually what keeps pushing me to work harder. Those who were lucky na kayang suportahan ng magulang, cherish them. And to those parents na hindi kaya pero kinakaya, mas pahalagahan mo.

Naexperience ko sa buhay na palaging mahirap, parating magisa at palaging mabigat pero okay lang! :) Kasi hinubog nito ang pagkatao ko na maging mabuti, hindi sakim at maging simple lamang. Minsan, pag nagiging madali ang buhay, naiilang ako kasi hindi ako sanay because we were used to getting it the hard way. But we never missed thanking God. Kahit minsan hindi maganda, thank God pa ren. :)

I look at our experiences as a benefit now. Cause I watch those who had it all. The people or the kids who never experienced what our family experienced. Watching quietly at them (with no judgement and grudge or what so ever), they discuss how this or that brand is better, an expensive food in one dine, a new gadget they want, a new lifestyle and etc and I wondered if how will they handle things when they get older then experience ang pagbagsak ng buhay. I consider my family lucky since we’ve experienced the bad and by that, when good things come, we appreciate it much more. We treasure even if its just simple for others. One thing I learned about life is that your struggles are your benefit. Cause the moment you rise up to success, it will be rewarding. And nothing can take that away… If it does, at least I know how to handle it. Cause I’ve been there… :) Sometimes, you don’t need to prove you’re a better person just because of the saying “Papunta ka pa lang, pabalik na ko”. If you know yourself you are, then there’s no need to convince anyone. Peace of mind, a good heart, a clear conscience a loving family, big dreams and a forgiving spirit with no vengeance and hate in your heart,Β  that’s all you need and nothing else matters. God sees you and He smiles. :)

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My first two plates in Visual Techniques 2. Yay! Got a 90! πŸ˜† Expect to have dirty hands after drawing.😌 #humananatomy #doodle #drawing #artwork #Mapua #MultimediaArts #studentlife #artists (at Mapúa Institute of Technology)

My first two plates in Visual Techniques 2. Yay! Got a 90! πŸ˜† Expect to have dirty hands after drawing.😌 #humananatomy #doodle #drawing #artwork #Mapua #MultimediaArts #studentlife #artists (at MapΓΊa Institute of Technology)

Hey you! Your struggle is just a part of your story. 😊 #positivity #optimism #cheerup #believe #inspiration #articles #selfhelpreads

Hey you! Your struggle is just a part of your story. 😊 #positivity #optimism #cheerup #believe #inspiration #articles #selfhelpreads

Everytime I wake up, I always read this sign on our bedroom wall. #july #beautifulthings #quotes #photography #appreciate

Everytime I wake up, I always read this sign on our bedroom wall. #july #beautifulthings #quotes #photography #appreciate

Always surprise yourself of what you are able to do! πŸ˜† Its one of the best feeling! To know you can actually be an inspiration to yourself and to others. 😊#antigravityyoga #photography #yoga #goodvibes #happy #workout #inspired

Always surprise yourself of what you are able to do! πŸ˜† Its one of the best feeling! To know you can actually be an inspiration to yourself and to others. 😊#antigravityyoga #photography #yoga #goodvibes #happy #workout #inspired

You Don’t Owe Anyone an Explanation

You dont owe anyone a yes to everything they say. You have a right to say no whenever there is no compelling reason to say yes. In fact, the most successful people in the world are those who have mastered the art of saying no to everything that is not a priority. Acknowledge other people’s kindness and be grateful for it, but don’t be afraid to politely decline anything that takes your focus away from your core goals and priorities. Thats how to get ahead.

I guess sometimes the greatest memories are made in the most unlikely of places, further proof that spontaneity is more rewarding than a meticulously planned life.
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― J.A. Redmerski (via psych-quotes)